2017 · Attitude · brenna gimler · Cold Running · happiness · Morning Running · Off Season Workouts · running · Running Friends

My Idea of Fun!

So these days I look forward to runs because I’m not in training.  I can run whatever I want and mostly I choose to run 3 miles because it’s fast, easy and enough to make me feel like I did something.  Today it was 25 degrees so I layered up probably just shy of too many layers but it was ok.  I headed out knowing they were running the Frosty Half Marathon which goes right past the end of my neighborhood on two sides.  I wasn’t sure I’d see the beginning or any runners at all since it was past 8 o’clock.  When I got to the end of my street one of the race volunteers laughed and told me to join the race and run in the other direction.  I giggled and told her I would be first….yeah for about 5 minutes until they caught up to me!  So down the road I go and there are cop cars with their lights on which tells me  they haven’t started yet.  BONUS!  I’ll see the beginning of the race and maybe i’ll stop to cheer.  When I see the first runner I decide I’m not stopping to cheer…. I”m running right through the crowd of runners cheering and hollering and giving high 5’s to everyone and that is exactly what I did!  It was so much fun!  Everyone smiled and gave me a high 5 back and I like to think I helped start their race off on the right foot.  The penalty for screaming and running and high fiving is that I lost my breath control for most of the rest of the way home, but it was worth it!  I wish I had my Frosty Half hat on today because then it would have at least told them that I was a fellow Frosty alum but no one cares anyway so it’s all good fun.  I can’t help myself when it comes to being excited and animated.  I’m not very grown up for my age but I wouldn’t change a thing.  My son tells me that I need to tone it down at his wrestling matches too.  I’m not real good at being quiet but why should I be?  I’m animated and loud and sarcastic and funny and that’s what I like best about me.  I’ve passed the time where I care what people think of me.  I’m past trying to make other people happy all the time.  I’ve learned to love life, people and the moments in life, like today, that become something you hold on to.  If you get the chance, run through a pack of runners in a race cheering.  It’s a refreshing and somewhat exhilarating experience that shakes out the ordinary in a day.

HAPPY RUNNING!

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2017 · Attitude · brenna gimler · Coaching · commitments · Discipline · happiness · Life

This Runner is Never Happy!

I had the usual disagreement with myself this morning that I have every off season.  My brain said do more and go for 5-6 miles but I interrupted myself and reminded me that it’s off season.  Off season is meant for rest from mostly running and more of stuff like my bike and swimming and weight training.  I wanted to keep one day where my miles are up but what heppens when I don’t?  Nothing, that’s what.  I’ve had a week away from VT and that hellacious hill and still my legs are flipping me off when I head out on the most flat 3 mile course comparedly.  My legs are pissed at me! As I headed out to beat the rain that’s coming in I just kept telling myself that 3 was good and the standard 3 miles is what it’s pretty much what my runs are going to be for at least a couple of weeks.  It’s funny how during training I complain about the long runs and sometimes even dread them and when I have the opportunity to keep it light, I’m arguing with myself about keeping it low because all I want to do is put up some digits.  It seems as though I’m never happy.  I never want to rest, sit still or keep it light.  When I do I’m beating myself up to try harder and not get lazy and I’m always pushing myself.  In a way I do like being my own motivator.  Mike & Mike  actually talked about that today detailing how some players in the NFL think it’s the coaches job to motivate them.  I couldn’t disagree more.  I think when a player / runner / athlete needs it, that a “coach” should step in and give them a pep talk but for the most part, that player /runner /athlete’s job is to motivate themselves.  I never look to anyone to motivate me except the old me.  The fat lazy depressed person who tried to take my cookies and make me quit.  The girl that’s always behind me as a reminder from where I came and where I do NOT want to go back to.  Whatever makes you go is fine.  You should be self motivated and never being happy with where you’re at is ok as long as you aren’t doing so much that you make yourself sick or injure yourself.  I may never be happy but I belive I have the right mix for me to keep striving for more.  Be the best me I can be  and enjoy it along the way until the day where I decide that it’s time to stop, if I get to that point.  I may never be perfectly satisfied & happy with what I’m doing,  but I’m happy where I am.   The point it that I’m happy never being happy because being unhappy with where I’m at is what motivates me to do more, be more, strive for more and THAT makes me very happy!

HAPPY RUNNING!

2017 · accountability · Attitude · brenna gimler · Cold Running · commitments · Discipline · running

Making It Up On The Other End

Last night I laid out my running gear for a run this morning.  I got my cold weather gear out, and had it in my head that  I would do my usual 3 mile, 5am run.  When my alarm went off and I pulled up my weather app, it wasn’t quite the 31 degrees that I had anticipated.  It was 25 degrees outside which isn’t far off from 31 but 6 degrees is 6 degrees when you’re warm and cuddly in your bed.  So I was already working through my other options for working out today like A) running at lunch which would be at 51 degrees which is much more tolerable to me today.  B) I also thought about riding my stationary bike which meant I would stay inside and stay warm.  C) I also thought about possibly not working out today and if that happens I’m ok with it.  I am opting for option B which means utilizing my free time differently, but giving up sitting around reading the same old gossip magazines or going out and possibly spending money that I shouldn’t is a good trade.  You see, I don’t have to, no one is counting on me to do so, so it ain’t gonna happen today at 25 degrees!  I’ll make it up and I do feel a little lazy at the moment but it’ll get done when I’ll be more comfortable and when my nose won’t stick together when I breathe.  When it’s so cold out that I might have to cover my face so I don’t catch PEE-NEW-MONIA I instantly begin my work around solution.  It’s funny because I really don’t mind running in the cold but I think I’m not quite adjusted to winter yet.  You know that brief time between Fall and Winter when it starts to get cold but isn’t truly freezing but you’d swear it was an ice age….yeah that’s where I am right now!  So I didn’t go out running….I ate my pancakes and eggs anyway….. and I will get my butt out there today….just later when it’s warmer and I’ll be happier!  Some days it’s all about the compromise and that’s ok as long as you do in fact make it up on the other end.

HAPPY RUNNING!

2017 · Attitude · being prepared · brenna gimler · fitness schedule · Good Running Gear · Hard Running · Hills · Random Thoughts

Feeling Like A Newbie

God, lately I feel like a new runner.  Sunday’s race left me struggling in my head with why I felt like the race was such a challenge.  In my head I knew I was ready but the rest of me didn’t feel quite as confident.  I hate dwelling on the what if’s but what if’s are different than circumstances that change the outcome of something if you grasp my meaning.  Let’s see…. I haven’t done a good core workout in  weeks.  Shame on me but that would definitely have something to do with it feeling more challenging.  I’m a week out from the monthly burden which means water retention, bloating, heavy legs which won’t get better until AFTER VT.  Great!  I think I need new sneakers because the backs of my legs were killing me.  I went back and YES I do need them.  I bought them in June…JUNE!!!!!!  What the hell!  I am usually more on my gear game.  So I’ve messaged my niece to see if she can look for my shoes and head up there at lunch to get a replacement pair.  Not smart but fixable.  The hills are always challenging but the thing that killed me was how quickly I stopped to walk.  I’m usually more headstrong but the hills got in my head.  I also was putting off peeing until I had to stop.  I had no coffee before the race and I peed  3 times before the gun and even at that I still had to pee on the course.  I put it off until I thought I was at the last port-o-potty and then I went.  The whole run that took my mind off my race and just added to the overall feeling of unreadiness that I felt. I have also had to give up some workouts because of the show and being at the high school every night.  Having workouts on the bookends of my day has been very helpful until this point but in the last 2 weeks it’s been limited to only one per day and most of those are running days.  This is not the way I wanted to end my running year but all of it together added up to making me feel like a beginner which I’m not.  Overall a good year, definitely lessons and changes to be made for next year.

HAPPY RUNNING!

2017 · brenna gimler · Cold Running · Discipline · Hard Running · Hills · Pace · Rain Running

Can You Dwell On Things You’ll Never Know?

So my question right now is “can you reasonably guestimate what would have happened if you made different choices?” That’s my thought process today. Today my legs feel like I would expect them to the day after a half marathon. Tired but not painfully achy and a slight bit of discomfort in my hips but nothing to cry about. The question I ponder is whether or not I should be thanking my new CW-X pants for feeling good today or not. I bought them so I would have extra support for the race. Support I had, the compression is great but the expectation I had for after the race was sorely short met. I expected my legs to feel great and to not have pain in my hips or knees or surprisingly the backs of my legs. That particular problem tells me I need new shoes so I will make that purchase soon. The question is however, did my new tights do their job or not? Would my legs feel worse today if I hadn’t worn them? Maybe. But I’ll never know for sure so why think about it?  Was the hilly course the culprit to my ridiculously sore lower extremities? Perhaps but perhaps not. I will never know the answer to this question because it can’t be answered. I cannot relive moments to determine different outcomes.  I suppose I could buy new shoes and run a long run with hills and see how I feel to test that theory. My watch didn’t save my time from the race so I won’t know my own pace.  It isn’t really different from the official time but I like to see the time on my watch because it tells me how much actual running time I had without stops or potty breaks.  This race, I may have run too fast but I don’t think so. I was texting my sons at every mile and it was averaging 10 minute miles. That’s not too fast and I don’t think it’s too fast with hills. Again, I will never know the answer to that. According to my official time of 2:21:15 I had a 10:47 average pace time. Overall that’s discouraging to me, but I did walk several times and I stopped to pee once. So no, I am not happy that I was putting up nearly an 11 minute mile throughout the race but it’s not shocking to me either because I wasn’t trying to run fast. I was trying to finish and at the end of the day who cares anyway except for me. Nobody that’s who. I’ll never know what could have been different, all I can do is change different things and see what the differences are. I won’t bad mouth my new pants because it’s possible that they actually did their job. I’ll use them again because the compression was very good. I won’t dwell on things, just change what I know needs to be changed and move on to the next thing. That’s life!  I think that the think I liked least was that I felt unprepared for a race that in all actuality I was very ready for.  I felt tired and old and wondering what the hell I thought I was doing signing up for that race anyway.  The audacity of my having signed up for another race at certain points in the race seemed rather audacious to me.  Pretty bold to do is what I thought as I was increasingly disappointed in myself for feeling so unprepared as I did for 13.1 miles.  I don’t feel that way anymore but yesterday I did.  I felt like everything wasn’t aligned properly, causing me to stumble through the race.  Although I finished it felt like a messy finish that needed cleaning up.  Again, a disappointment that was only temporary to the situation.  Today of course I’m looking at races for 2018 so how badly could I feel anyway right?  All we can do is move on and that’s exactly what I’ll be doing!

HAPPY RUNNING!

2017 · Attitude · being prepared · brenna gimler · Cold Running · Discipline · Equipment Failure · goals · Hills · Rain Running · Random Thoughts · Running Environment · Running experience

Dissapointments Are Only Temporary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So my last Half Marathon is now done.  It was a very hilly race in cooler weather that bordered on raw by the end of the race.  I was happy that the nasty rain held out pretty much until I was finished.  Deep down inside I was a little disappointed that I had to walk a few times.  Well, it was more like wanted to walk most of those times except for a few times getting up another hill.  I hate it when I walk because it makes me feel so damn defeated but as I tell everyone I know, no one…I mean NO ONE in the world cares if you walk.  There were lots of walkers yesterday and walkers in places where I didn’t really understand why they were walking at that very spot.  I always feel a little like I don’t deserve the finishers medal when I walk.  I know I still finished 13.1 miles but I didn’t run the entire thing and I certainly didn’t treat it like a race and push myself anywhere except to the finish line.  I was disappointed but disappointments are only temporary.  My wonderful son was waiting in the stinging cold rain for me with a giant bear hug at the finish line.  That was my actual reward for running yesterday’s race.  I always look for my kids if they come to the race because it’s like a huge surge of adrenaline that kicks in when I round the corner.  I can’t wait to get to them and hug them.  All I think about the last 2 miles is the kid who came to my race.  So far that has only been James and it’s kind of nice to have him volunteer to come with me and sit around for 2+ hours while I run.  My hips and knees and legs were not in the greatest shape when I finished.  My right knee especially must have had some serious internal swelling because it was killing me.  The backs of my legs ached especially on the long drive home 7 hours later from spending the post race day with my son John at URI.  Driving was more and more awful as the hour home went on.  I couldn’t wait to put my feet up for the night.  I am disappointed that the new @cwx_usa tights that I bought specifically for leg, joint and muscle support didn’t work.  It could have been the hills and I suppose that today had I not worn them I could feel a whole lot worse, but yesterday I was disappointed in the $75 investment that didn’t make a difference when I needed it to.  Live and learn I suppose.  Maybe I need to do a long flat run to see how I feel but I feel like I shouldn’t have felt so bad after this race because I had my @cwx_usa tights.  Maybe I’m just old.  Today I’m over it because disappointments are temporary as long as you use them to improve yourself and your situation.  Overall yesterday was a success in that I finished and I’m proud of myself for finishing.  I certainly am happy that I only have one more race to go next Sunday but I’m nervous because the hill I’m about to face is 10x any hill I took on yesterday and it’s 4 miles long straight up in the predicted cold weather.  Only time will tell how it will go and only a good attitude will see me through.  I’ve got at least one of those under control, the rest I’ll take as it comes.  Bring on VT and the best race that I can do.  

 

 

HAPPY RUNNING!

 

 

 

2017 · Attitude · brenna gimler · commitments · Discipline · Dreadmill · motivation · Random Thoughts · running

4:49 AM; The Line Between Dedication & a Hobby

So today I woke up before my 4:45 alarm to the sound of wind and what was probably sideways stinging rain.  I realized that running outside was not a smart idea so I decided to go to the gym to use the treadmill instead.  Now I pretty much hate the DM but on days like this and others in the winter where there is no where to run, I appreciate my gym membership quite a bit.  There are some other things I like it for like spin class.  I have a stationary spin bike at home but I don’t work it like I do when I go to the gym.  I also appreciate the pool for some cardio, the sauna sometimes to relax, the stairmaster for punishment, fitness classes of many kinds for whenever I’m having a whim moment.  Mostly my appreciation is for that damn DM because it’s always there when I need  it.  Today was one of those days.  As I tossed on my gear and grabbed my keys I took this picture of the clock on the stove in my kitchen.  This is the line between dedication and a hobby.  I’m up because I have limited time to fit in a workout these days so it’s either 4:49 or not at all.  Wanting it and doing it are very different.  It’s like the people on the DM that walk while holding on, no incline and no sweat.  Those are the people that wonder why they aren’t reaching their goals.  It’s because they aren’t working hard enough for it.  I don’t mean to sound like an asshole but really, no sweat, no elevated heart rate, no sore muscles = no achievement.  You have to actually put effort into it which includes getting up at 4:30 to get to the gym to sweat.  I can’t carry on a conversation without huffing and puffing when I’m running, street or DM.  I don’t go to the gym  to talk to my friends, I go to the gym to improve myself.  Now I don’t know anyone’s situation so there could be extenuating circumstances like coming back from a heart attack or surgery, however, in general there is a definite line between casual fitness….NO!  no no no no no!  I can’t even use those words together because fitness isn’t casual.  How about  there is a difference between moving and dedicated fitness.  Today that line for me was 4:49 am as I stepped out into a morning that undoubtedly would have ended in some kind of negative result.  Today I realized that dedication has set into who I have become from someone who no longer exists.  It’s just part of my being now.  I don’t even think about it.  I just do it day after day working toward an invisible and undefined goal that changes all the time.  4:49 is what sets me aside from everyone else who just talks about it, complains about it instead of doing it.  4:49 is the strength of the lotus that rises up from the mud at the bottom of the pond to bloom on the surface into a beautiful flower.  I am the lotus and 4:49 is the fire in the pit of my belly that burns strong like the eternal flame that always reminds me where I have been and why I do what I do.  4:49 is the bar that I always reach for that is just out of reach but always reachable.  4:49 is the line between dedication and a hobby, doing and not doing, wasting energy and getting results.  I am 4:49!

HAPPY RUNNING!