I started this Fighter Diet ( @Fighter_Diet ) technically 4 days ago if you count today. The challenge actually started today but I have to be ahead of everyone so I started counting nutrients and measuring stuff on Sunday. I put my book together with all the support docs they give us and also included log sheets for the next 40 or so days of the 87-ish that make up the challenge. I have all the workout logs and the food breakdowns in there. It’s my bible for the next 12 weeks! Ok, that’s not so strange as I am an organized person to a fault. Not perfect of course because attention to details in some things isn’t where it could be but mostly I hold the title for organizational queen. Today however, I went out at lunch and bought the stuff to make these weird looking but very popular, pancakes (or waffles) that everyone taking the challenge is raving about. Not only did I buy the ingredients I didn’t have at home but I also bought an alternate for variety or choice if I don’t like the first one. I also bought another ingredient that is in my book because it looked healthy and good and just 4 days in I’m starting to get sick of the same foods every day. NO, what I’m sick of mostly is writing down the same stupid foods every day on my sheet. Not sure why that’s bugging me but it is. So now I’ll have a choice but whatever happened to waiting to see how at least week 1 panned out before jumping all in? Clearly I’m a fan of this program and I’ve thrown caution to the wind because I’m convinced it’s going to work for me despite my reservations about the food consumption. You see, I already work out as much if not more than they tell the participants to do in the program. Many of this group are out of shape with little to no fitness in their life so for them this program will be a godsend. For me I’m hoping that counting my nutrients and drinking a TON of water above what I usually get down in conjunction with upping and switching up my weight workouts a little will be the difference. Having people to talk to about what I’m doing who understand it because they too are living it is helpful. Seeing other people’s motivation and success/ failures makes me feel normal and having drank the proverbial Coolaid is helping motivate me to keep going every day. Seeing all these before pictures of people who also jumped in head first is inspiring. Probably why I sent in my pictures because who the hell cares what I look like except me. It all boils down to the fact that I’m stoked to be doing this. I’m happy that there are coaches with what seems like endless patience for people who could answer their own questions if they would just READ the material that was handed out. One of the things that I like most about this challenge is that I don’t set the workouts. I have to follow what they set forthe as the workout for the week. I can’t change it, skip it (well I could but I won’t), substitute it at all. No one is monitoring me but me and I really don’t want to be on the other side of that face in the mirror. I’m more motivated to follow a specific plan laid out week by week than I am continuing to lay out a new plan for myself and going at the moderate workout in an average way.
I am a foodie plain and simple. I love food. I live to eat good food and thankfully I am a modified good eater that broke old bad food habits. I wake up thinking about what is for breakfast, lunch and dinner and go to bed thinking about the next day’s food adventure! Well, I never would have thought that I would be bitching about how much food I have to eat but here I am dreading all the food I must eat today. Now when I say dread I don’t mean I don’t want to…..I just am not looking forward to actually consuming that much food. I am now on Pauline Nordin’s Fighter Diet. I don’t follow her recipes but those are just suggestions for those who can’t get going or need tight guidance. I don’t need this. It’s a program with a specific workout regimen and a very specific plan for counting calories, proteins, carbs and fats. Well let me be the first to say that I LOVE the organization and planning part of this diet but I HATE actually writing it all down and planning meals for the day. Such a pain in the ass but I’m doing it. This plan calls for ME (specific calculation based on where I want to get to) to actually eat 2,175 calories! OMFG! I usually hover around 1,100 – 1,400 per day and maybe a scooch more on workout days which is pretty much every day. 2,175 doesn’t sound like much but believe me when it isn’t coming from shit you’re just shoving in your face but from calculated planning it’s a shit ton of food. I eat all damn day long! Now no complaints from me about eating but it seems like I never stop. I will say that having to write it all down and be accountable for each thing I am eating is a major stopper to just snacking whenever I want. Having to report to myself for each calorie and try to stay under the daily limit took me over an HOUR last night to plan out. I added and then subtracted foods, erased things and did the re-add thing for all the numbers until I got as close as I could for the day. It is never going to be dead on to my planned max for each of the 4 categories but I do my best. Which is all I can do. I’m nervous about putting on weight because of all this food but my friend Cherrie says to have faith in the plan because she’s proof that it works like it should and if you follow your plan. I signed up because I want to look good for my age…well better anyway. I signed up so I am not a blanket dweller at the beach who is afraid to show some skin because it’s all cellulite. I don’t want to get all mushy or mushier and if I can tighten my core for a good Falmouth this year I’ll be super happy not to mention that looking ok in a bathing suit at the company outing in a few weeks would be outstanding too. That one is just a bonus. So this is an experiment for me to see how good I can be and how well it will work. I want to learn how to feed my body and make it do what I want. It should be interesting so stay tuned for Fighter Diet updates. My Bad Ass B friends are all doing it so it’s more fun in a group. So happy these ladies are my friends!
You know, I realize that I am by the standards of the world, overweight. The doctors would say that my 5′ 4″ frame at 171 lbs is obese actually. I think all that is BS and I choose to think of it as carrying 20 extra lbs that could and probably should be shed. Hence therein lies my summer goal. Losing 10-20 lbs before the Falmouth Road Race. Now I found a really cool app called Pacer thank you to my co-worker. It auto syncs with my health app on my phone, which by the effing way, auto calculates how far I’ve walked in a day! This is good! I’ve set goals that I’m not off to a remarkably good start at but I’m motivated to progress which is progress in itself. I want to run more and will now that I’m training. It’s just a 7 miler so not much actual “Training” is needed but just the same, I’m in TRAINING. I want to eat better meaning no milk, bread, no sugar, no dry creamer in my coffee in the morning are the sacrifices. Starting this on a holiday weekend was not a good idea. I’ve broken all of it in moderation because that’s how I got fat in the first place, eating everything I wanted to in “moderation” instead of an actual serving size. No sugar, yeah well a half a cupcake and a bunch of Hot Tamale’s in one day killed that. I did well today by not eating life savers all day to control my sugar craving. 4 Keurig containers of Hot Chocolate did nothing for my success either but hey, I didn’t have a second cup of coffee with dry creamer. Is that an even swap? I don’t think so. Missing break is actually helpful because at break we just eat. I mean like 4 snacks at a sitting eating. Holy shit I think I eat snacks for the day in my morning break, so that has to go or change. Eating the same grams in protein as my current body weight seems more challenging than I would like and includes having to log all my food again to see where I’m at. It’s a LOT of protein! I’m struggling there but I’ll figure it out. Increase my water intake without adding Crystal Light has been ok not great, but easily doable. All of this is doable. I started a fitness challenge two weeks ago that didn’t get off on the right start. First I started 6 of them AT THE SAME TIME! not a good idea. So we cut that down to 2 and although I am not really following the on / off schedule of the 30 day challenge, I’m on track with both of them to keep going. I can deal with that. I’m running more because now that the weather is nice I can get outside. I could get outside before but I refuse to go be cold and not every day can I head out and hit the gym.
All of these efforts are coming along except one…. The amount of food I’m eating and the absolute compulsion to finish food on my plate. I didn’t realize it until tonight that I am not only serving myself for two, I’m consuming it all because it’s there….BECAUSE IT’S THERE!!! (Yeah, that guy over there is pretty much me eating anything) Are you kidding me? As I sat eating that delicious and not so good for me Chicken Parm dinner up there (with no-no bread of course) I realized something as I got up to wrap it up. I wanted to put something in my stomach to work out on so I put a modest portion on my plate and yes I took a bun. I thought that I’ll eat half now and finish eating it when I complete my workouts. I felt actual anxiety in the pit of my stomach wrapping up my plate with food still on it! What the hell is that all about? literal butterflies like I would never see that food again. WOW…just wow! Fatter people than me have that problem not me. Well girlie look in the mirror and you’ll see one of those heavier people looking back. Now she isn’t “Fat Brenna” but that girl looking back at you every morning is someone who has a serious compulsion to eat. When you wake up thinking about what is for breakfast, lunch and dinner TOMORROW, you have to get a grip on how you think of food and change it’s meaning. You also need to eat slower and drink water with your food so you take up some of that room and help your food expand in your stomach. Eating slower means feeling fuller closer to the calories that you should stop at. Now that my plate is in the fridge and I’m digested enough to head down for some core work I’m fine. No food twitches going on.
Here are my real objectives for the summer:
- Eat better portions of better food and eat it slower.
- increase water intake
- one snack at snacktime
- small healthy snacks throughout the day
- as much protein up to my current body weight as I can
- as many two a days as I can get in during the week following the goals I set in my new app.
I’ll keep you posted.