2017 · brenna gimler · God · Random Thoughts

Just Believe

I just finished reading @IronCowboyJames book “Iron Cowboy.  Redefine Impossible” at least the story part.  There’s an epilogue that discusses life after the 50 that I will read asap because I feel I need a soft landing to finishing this great story.  Now I don’t know him but after reading this story I sort of do feel like I know him a little.  Maybe it’s just a well written book that has successfully accomplished it’s intended goal of drawing the reader in.  Maybe it was just so honest and detailed about this tremendous undertaking and James Lawrence’s sheer will with all the encompassing struggles that made it near impossible to put down. To have family and friends willing to take that journey with you is amazing.  They too sacrificed so much to make sure the Cowboy was successful is a debt that can never be repaid.

As I read this amazing book I was as proud as if he were my brother as he wrote about the big finish.  The book made me cry when he finally took his last steps to complete 50 | 50 | 50 because I felt like I experienced a synopsis of what he went through and like any hero movie like Rudy or other great films, this book found me cheering in my car in the parking lot at work as I finished.  It also gave me some realizations and affirmations that I knew were there but should acknowledge so they don’t fall by the wayside.

Sometimes as a solo runner, I feel alone in my journey and experiences.  I feel like when I have a bad run I’m a poor runner with no heart and should just stop.  I wouldn’t ever stop but that’s how it feels when you’re a loner.  I’m not alone, I’m normal.  Sometimes I feel so happy when my splits are awesome and I feel great and the people immediately surrounding me don’t run, haven’t run in races or are faster and look down at you from their pedestal of faster – better –  more which just makes you feel “less than”.  I know I’m not less than,  I’m normal.  Some days when I think about doing more I feel that it’s impossible with no support staff helping me train but I realize that running alone is a choice that I am in charge of.  If I want to do more, I need to seek out the ones who will go the distance with me.  I’m not alone, I’m alone right now but do not have to be.

The chronicles depicted in this book reassure me that we are all very similar in that there will be good days, bad days, horrible days, successful days all of which will be met with some kind of emotion.  Be it smiles and tears, anger & lashing out or even motion stopping breath holding pauses where we search for the will to continue.  We all experience different versions of the same emotions as runners.  This story reminds me that anything is possible if you just believe in it and in your ability to accomplish it.  To be successful in any endeavor one needs to be resourceful, organized, determined, motivated, goal oriented, driven and of course faithful for with God all things are possible and that is a fact.  That’s it.  So in my solo world I am just solo in my immediate surroundings not within the universe.  There’s always someone having a better or worse experience than I am at any moment in time, those moments are just not connected…yet but they are connected.

If you are looking for something within yourself Read the book.

If you think you can’t, read the book.

If you wonder if your goal is accomplishable, read the book.

Believe me, you can do anything you set your mind to, all you have to do is believe…in yourself!


2016 · Attitude · motivation · Random Thoughts

You Have to WANT to

ifThere are things in this life that I have a willingness to accept.  Lack of ability, lack of money, lack of resources and maybe a couple of other things.  I am, however, unwilling to accept excuses and lack of effort!  Whining about something that really is an unwillingness to make an effort to change just makes me angry.  Stop complaining about whatever it is if you are unwilling to do anything about it.  Whining doesn’t fix it. I can’t stand it.  I have never tolerated it from my children and it drives me insane when I hear someone doing it.  I totally concede that it is one thing if you truly CAN’T because you do not have the ability to do it or you would die if you did do it, but anything other than those few reasons is just an excuse.  I don’t really tolerate it well because I would never do it.  If I want to change something I just do whatever I need to in order to make it better period.  I don’t sit around whining about it or wishing it were just all of a sudden better or non-existent.  I buckle down and make it better by making changes or I don’t complain.

Most of the time, I find that it is because the real reason is that someone doesn’t want to do whatexcuses it takes to fix it.  Let’s just take gaining weight as an example because I lived this one.  If you have gained weight and don’t fit into your regular clothes but don’t want to get up at 5am to run or work out, why not?  What are you doing with your 24 hours a day?  Really, this is an actual question that needs to be looked at.  Now, I don’t mean that you should cut sleep but there are definitely hours that are being wasted for no reason.  Let’s see…. there are: gaps between classes/ errands & daily tasks, you have an hour for lunch, there are hours after work and before bed,  there are hours after school and before work, there are early am hours before your day and maybe a few other places where unutilized hours pass by.  I’m 47 and have 3 kids.  Now two are in College but a few years ago they were not.  I get up at 5 and make them ALL Breakfast and lunch and after work I make them dinner too because I WANT to.  I clean the house, do laundry, grocery shop, work full time and I fit in a workout nearly every day wherever I can.

This is my CHOICE.  I make lunch the night before so that at 6am when breakfast is done, I can go for a 3-5 mile run…or an hour workout.  IF I choose not to run in the morning I either do it on3 my lunch hour or right after work.  YES I give up lunch to run because running / health / eating yummy food is more important to me than sitting around on my lunch doing nothing.  YES I sweat but I wash up after my run with soap and water and a cloth.  I use deodorant so I don’t smell, I bring a change of underwear and I get it done. If I don’t WANT to run at lunch I run right after work and before I make dinner…I MAKE DINNER TOO!  Everyone waits for me or they make their own dinner if they are super hungry.  You see, where there is a will, there is a way but you have to have a will to make the sacrifice in order to get it done.

Life is busy and time consuming but you have to remember that YOU are important and you have to take time for yourself to stay healthy, happy & sane.  me-vs-meTrust me.  This is coming from someone who not long ago, suffered a huge blow to her happy life.  I got laid off 4 TIMES IN A ROW, had some massive personal and marital issues to handle, gained 50 lbs, bordered on suicidal, fought big time depression all while putting on my stupid fake happy face so my kids would not know / see what I was struggling with.  I couldn’t just give up because that’s not me.  I found time to fix my marriage, work situation, health and life because I WANTED to.  It’s not different than an alcoholic.  They have to WANT to get sober before they CAN get sober.  All things are possible with faith in God, motivation and determination.   That’s me…I did it and you can do it too!

These     songs helped me keep going when I didn’t want to.  If you are struggling, I hope they help you too!

Rachel Platten- Fight Song                Rodney Atkins- If You’re Going Through Hell