I wasn’t planning on going for a run today. I just wasn’t “feeling it” so I wasn’t really bustin’ a move to get breakfasts and lunches done so I could head out. Then something happened that prompted me to decide I needed a run. See that empty space over there on the napkin? That’s where my High School Senior son’s sandwich usually goes. Today I realized that yesterday I made the last high school lunch that I will ever make for him and all of a sudden my eyes started leaking and my throat got all tight and my nose started running. I began to cry. I know it’s just a stupid sandwich but it is just another step in my having to let him go off to college to do what I couldn’t wait to do at his age. I feel sorry for my mother now because I now know that I too did not realize that it might bother her that I was all about my new independence. I now know what it’s like to be on the other side of that fence and It doesn’t really feel that great. I just feel sad that I won’t wake him up every day or make his lunch and dinner and breakfast. He’ll be fine..it’s me I worry about LOL. So as I have done many times since beginning my running journey, I laced up my kicks and headed out to feel better. It always works for me and I gain perspective that helps me stay grounded. I never thought I’d get emotional over a simple peanut butter and jelly sandwich but now that sandwich seems so very important to me and I miss it…maybe I’ll eat one for lunch!
HAPPY RUNNING!
