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Peanut Butter & Jelly Run

pbjI wasn’t planning on going for a run today.  I just wasn’t “feeling it” so I wasn’t really bustin’ a move to get breakfasts and lunches done so I could head out.  Then something happened that prompted me to decide I needed a run.  See that empty space over  there on the napkin?  That’s where my High School Senior son’s sandwich usually goes.  Today I realized that yesterday I made the last high school lunch that I will ever make for him and all of a sudden my eyes started leaking and my throat got all tight and my nose started running.  I began to cry.  I know it’s just a stupid sandwich but it is just another step in my having to let him go off to college to do what I couldn’t wait to do at his age.  I feel sorry for my mother now because I now know that I too did not realize that it might bother her that I was all about my new independence.  I now know what it’s like to be on the other side of that fence and It doesn’t really feel that great.  I just feel sad that I won’t wake him up every day or make his lunch and dinner and breakfast.  He’ll be’s me I worry about LOL.  So as I have done many times since beginning my running journey, I laced up my kicks and headed out to feel better.  It always works for me and I gain perspective that helps me stay grounded.  I never thought I’d get emotional over a simple peanut butter and jelly sandwich but now that sandwich seems so very important to me and I miss it…maybe I’ll eat one for lunch!