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New Things

Today was a gross day for running.  Humid and nasty.  I had to stop and yank my pant legs up and pull my elastic out to make a tank top out of my t-shirt so I didn’t overheat.  Nasty but another 3 miles in the books for me.  So, Since Johnny left for college just 4 days ago, I’ve found many new things that I would say are an improvement to the drudgery of what could be considered a daily routine.  Lunch making, dinner making, breakfast making, work, running, shower sleep repeat… not exactly in that order but you get it.  So the few new additions to that routine are:

  1. Ssnapchatnapchat- I now have an iPhone and Snapchat and I am learning how to do video, use filters and just have what many adults forget how to do… have fun- yeah that’s me over there after today’s run
  2. Skype- although this one is not a new tool, I am using it much more to talk to John just about every day.  The fact that my wonderful child WANTS to talk to us at the end of most days makes me so happy.  We did tell him that he doesn’t need to but I’m not going to turn down any day that he does.  Somewhere he must know how much I miss him
  3. learning to figure out how to NOT be a pain.  Containing all the things I want to tell Johnny till we talk to him is hard for me since I’m impulsive and not really that patient.
  4. keeping the remaining troops happy-  Remembering to smile and pay the same attention to my other kids while one is missing is now always top of mind while trying not to smother them because I’m hanging on by what seems to be my nails at moments.  Even James said I was doing good not being overbearing so Good Job Mom!

Running, as it has for the last 1,899 days, has kept me sane, kept me fitter, definitely keeps me happy and now helps me to keep the balance as life changes.  That’s a lot of days but every one of  them has had a hand in healing and cementing my faith that God is never far away when you need Him.


Family · happiness · Life · Random Thoughts

Just When You Need It, God Delivers

homeI don’t usually write twice in one day but sometimes it is necessary.  God is amazing and he teaches lessons when lessons are needed and other times he delivers things that heal just when you need them.  He must have felt my sadness because not only did he ensure that Johnny texted me, I feel like he influenced the Facetime and Skype testing too.  We talked with John for a long time today.  We walked around his dorm as he figured out how to do things and where things were and we even tried to help with a task or two which made us feel normal just for a few minutes again.  There was one other little message that the Lord delivered and it was just to me.  I had sent a care package just from Mom with John without telling him.  I stuffed it into his tote and never said a word.   He found it today.  Now it wasn’t anything amazing or awesome, just a card with what was in my heart that I couldn’t say to his face yesterday and a little envelope with things symbolic in nature.  One of those things was a shoestring and when we Skyped, he had tied it on his wrist like a bracelet without mentioning it or the package to me and at that very moment I felt so loved by him and somewhere deep down I felt the hug to my heart from my little boy.  One of the ones that just warms my soul that seemed to say  “I’m not far away mama. Don’t worry.  I’m fine and I love you so” and I smiled.  I feel like in some little way he feels like it’s some little piece of home right close by and in it’s own way it is.  ❤ that kid so much!